"Are you willing to be sponged out, erased, cancelled, made nothing? Are you willing to be made nothing? dipped into oblivion? If not, you will never really change." D.H. Lawrence
I have an unattractive motion in my chin when I have exceeded my terror level. It gets numb and quivers pathetically causing me to drool. This happened during my one and only sky dive and just prior to a scuba dive off of the Great Barrier Reef. It happened as I followed the nurse down the long foreboding hallway to the hospital bed. The chin thing started when the nurse approached me in the waiting room.
Clearly shielding me from the other two cancer patients sitting in the waiting room, Nurse asked in a curious whisper, "Which one of you is Dawn Novotny", raising my hand, she continued, "We only have one hospital bed left and when I looked at the medications they are giving you, you are defiantly going to need that bed."
Oh my God I thought, what exactly does that mean? Will this procedure hurt that much? Might I die on the table or something? What is she saying and why did she say that to me? Didn't she know that I was already scared s
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